He closes his eyes and the only thing he sees are the needles that pierces his heart. The images of the kissing and the hugging were stucked in his head. He could not sleep because everytime he would close his eyes, he would get nightmares. The pain that he has been trying to forget, remains still in his mind. He thought that talking to his friends would have started the healing process but it did nothing. So he took the only way that he thought was best which was keeping to himself. Every time his friends asked him out to go out with them, he just said "No thank you.. I just wanna be alone..". They understood his pain but they just didn't want him to be alone because they were worried for him. Worried for what he may have done to himself. Why? Scars all over his hands, hospitalized for a week for over-dosage of sleeping pills and was given anti-depressant and anti-anxiety pills. Until one day, Jayson, a friend of his, decided to confront him and tell him that whatever he was doing was really stupid. 'You're just taking the easy way out of life, aren't you!? You'll find someone better! She didn't love you! Get up on your ass and start facing reality like a man!". Right after that, Kon reflected back on his life. He realized he has been pushing his friends away. He lost someone he loved but he knew, he didn't wanna lose everyone he loved just because he lost one. He thought to himself, "Right now.. The best thing I can do is not to push everyone away but at least act like I am okay.. I don't want to lose them all.. I'll fake a smile for them...". The next day, he sent a text message to everyone. "Hey guys... I know I have been pushing all of you away and I am really sorry. It is just hard because of what happened so I would like to make it up to all of you. Do you guys wanna go out tonight??..." The good friends he has, they all went out with him just to help and to support him. He smiled, he laughed, he played but it was all fake. He went home drunk from the sadness within him as he could not take lying to his friends.
Present
No more nightmares, no more depression and no more insomnia. This had been one of the best sleep he has ever had. Thinking about the way she flipped her hair, how she smelled like, the way her chest pressed against his and the way her lips moved around his, he just felt so very happy. He woke up the next morning with a smile on his face and in an instant, he quickly grabbed his phone, dialed her number and waited for her to pick up. "Hello? Baby, good morning!!" as she said with a loud and cheerful voice. It warmed his heart. He wanted her voice to be the first thing he heard in the morning and he missed her so very much. "Good morning, baby. What time did you wake up?" as he asked with a warm but tired voice. They continued to talk on the phone until she said she wanted to meet up with him on that day itself as she missed him so very much too. He grabbed his keys, opened the gates and got in to his car. He drove fast but carefully to the house and as he walked to the compound of her apartment, she was waiting downstairs in the lobby. He got out of the car and was greeted by a pair of arms surrounding his body. His eyes opened widely, another heartbeat could be felt against his chest and her lips on his, that was the best greeting he ever received. He smiled and said "Good morning, my love. I am here.." and they both hugged each other. She smiled, held his hands and looked into this eyes, "Good morning, my love. Welcome home..." and they both kissed while holding hands.
Present
No more nightmares, no more depression and no more insomnia. This had been one of the best sleep he has ever had. Thinking about the way she flipped her hair, how she smelled like, the way her chest pressed against his and the way her lips moved around his, he just felt so very happy. He woke up the next morning with a smile on his face and in an instant, he quickly grabbed his phone, dialed her number and waited for her to pick up. "Hello? Baby, good morning!!" as she said with a loud and cheerful voice. It warmed his heart. He wanted her voice to be the first thing he heard in the morning and he missed her so very much. "Good morning, baby. What time did you wake up?" as he asked with a warm but tired voice. They continued to talk on the phone until she said she wanted to meet up with him on that day itself as she missed him so very much too. He grabbed his keys, opened the gates and got in to his car. He drove fast but carefully to the house and as he walked to the compound of her apartment, she was waiting downstairs in the lobby. He got out of the car and was greeted by a pair of arms surrounding his body. His eyes opened widely, another heartbeat could be felt against his chest and her lips on his, that was the best greeting he ever received. He smiled and said "Good morning, my love. I am here.." and they both hugged each other. She smiled, held his hands and looked into this eyes, "Good morning, my love. Welcome home..." and they both kissed while holding hands.
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