No reply for about 10 minutes. Everything started to flow back into this head. None of this would have happened if she didn't text him back.
"Why did you text me then? Why after so long, text me now? You know I still love you! YOU KNOW DAMN WELL HOW MUCH I STILL LOVE YOU! What is it that you want from me? Do you want him? Do you want me? Do you want both!? Because if it is both, it isn't going to work! EVER! Stop talking to me! Stop making me remember things I don't wanna remember! Just STOP!"
He sat there, crying with so much anger and so much tears started to flow out of his eyes that it looked like a storm had hit a river. His eyes got redder and he bit his lips. His hands clenched and as he screamed out in a loud cry, he punched the wall with his right hand. In his head, he kept on thinking about the purple gown she was going to wear during their wedding. The wedding that was supposed to be held at a restaurant beside a beach where you could see the waves cover the sand with it's salty yet clear water. Where the moonlight would shine down on them as they said yes to each other's commitment. He kept on thinking about how it is all gone now. Like how those memories have shattered so easily like throwing a pebble at a mirror and seeing the glasses shatter and fall to the ground. Where all his dreams and memories have turned to nightmares and memories he wants to forget. How 'he' interfered with everything they had. How he wanted to slit 'his' throat and see blood flowing out of 'his' neck. How he wanted to see 'him' cling on this life and begging him for mercy. He wanted that power to make 'him' feel like how he was feeling now.
*Beep
"It's not that I didn't love you. It's not that I gave up on everything we had. It's not that I wanted to let you go. It's just that..... It didn't feel right anymore... But that doesn't mean..."
"MEAN WHAT!? MEAN FREAKING WHAT!? THAT YOU HATE ME!? THAT YOU DIDN'T MEAN HURT ME!? THAT YOU WANTED ME TO LIVE PEACEFULLY AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME!? IS THAT IT!? IS THAT FREAKING IT!?"
"No.... But that doesn't mean... that I stopped loving you....."
"What did she just say? She never stopped loving me....?" It didn't make sense to him. What could she have possibly meant by saying something like that. "Is she playing with my feelings? Does she just want to hurt me more?". The image of her taking off her clothes with 'him' just started to agitate his anger even more. He couldn't bear the pain. He needed to do something about it.
"Please... Answer me... I need to talk to you... Please reply me...... Ken...."
*Ding Dong
In her confused state as she started to wonder who could be the one ringing her doorbell as it was 3 in the morning. She went downstairs to open the door and as she looked through the peeking hole, she started trembling and crying. She opened the door slightly as she opened her mouth "What....What are you doing here...?"
"YOU NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME!? HOW IN THE WORLD COULD YOU SAY THAT!? AFTER WHAT I SAW! AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME! HOW IN THE FREAKING WORLD COULD YOU EVER SAY THAT TO ME!? WHY.. WHY...WHY....Why.... why..... Just why.........Sharolyn" as Ken fell to his knees and passed out from exhaustion. Sharolyn who was caught in surprise, quickly reacted and carried him to her sofa that was located in the living room. She quickly ran to the kitchen, poured water in to her favourite cup, rushed back to the living room, only to find Ken sitting up already. She passed him the water but did not sit down next to him. Instead, she stood beside him, waiting for him to calm down.
"Where's 'he'?"
"Who?"
"You know who."
"He went back home."
"What did you mean when you said you never stopped loving me?"
"..."
"..."
They both just looked away from each other in silence and that silence remained for about a minute. Sharolyn opened her mouth but nothing came out of her mouth. She wanted to say something just to comfort him but she knew the more she talked, the more she is just going to hurt him. So, she did the right thing. She kept her mouth shut.
"You know I still love you."
"..."
"You know I'll do anything for you. You know I'll always be here for you."
"Yeah. I know."
"I'll go now. Sorry for barging in."
Ken got up, apporached the door but before he could, Sharolyn grabbed his hand."
"Stay...Just stay one night with me..."
Ken was shocked by what she had just said.
"What... What did you just say?...."
"Stay...."
"For what..."
"Because..."
"Because...?"
"Because I still love you..."
Ken turned around to face her.
"I love you..."
"I love you too..."
"I'll stay..."
Ken let out a tear, and smiled. It had been awhile since he genuinely smiled. She grabbed him and pulled her towards his body and for the first time since they broke up, they hugged. As their body contacted one another, their lips started to lean towards one another. They kissed. They hugged. They laughed. They smiled.
To Be Continued
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