Love or Lies; The Commitment

"Did we mean anything...?"

No reply for about 10 minutes. Everything started to flow back into this head. None of this would have happened if she didn't text him back.

"Why did you text me then? Why after so long, text me now? You know I still love you! YOU KNOW DAMN WELL HOW MUCH I STILL LOVE YOU! What is it that you want from me? Do you want him? Do you want me? Do you want both!? Because if it is both, it isn't going to work! EVER! Stop talking to me! Stop making me remember things I don't wanna remember! Just STOP!"

He sat there, crying with so much anger and so much tears started to flow out of his eyes that it looked like a storm had hit a river. His eyes got redder and he bit his lips. His hands clenched and as he screamed out in a loud cry, he punched the wall with his right hand. In his head, he kept on thinking about the purple gown she was going to wear during their wedding. The wedding that was supposed to be held at a restaurant beside a beach where you could see the waves cover the sand with it's salty yet clear water. Where the moonlight would shine down on them as they said yes to each other's commitment. He kept on thinking about how it is all gone now. Like how those memories have shattered so easily like throwing a pebble at a mirror and seeing the glasses shatter and fall to the ground. Where all his dreams and memories have turned to nightmares and memories he wants to forget. How 'he' interfered with everything they had. How he wanted to slit 'his' throat and see blood flowing out of 'his' neck. How he wanted to see 'him' cling on this life and begging him for mercy. He wanted that power to make 'him' feel like how he was feeling now.

*Beep

"It's not that I didn't love you. It's not that I gave up on everything we had. It's not that I wanted to let you go. It's just that..... It didn't feel right anymore... But that doesn't mean..."

"MEAN WHAT!? MEAN FREAKING WHAT!? THAT YOU HATE ME!? THAT YOU DIDN'T MEAN HURT ME!? THAT YOU WANTED ME TO LIVE PEACEFULLY AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME!? IS THAT IT!? IS THAT FREAKING IT!?"

"No.... But that doesn't mean... that I stopped loving you....."

"What did she just say? She never stopped loving me....?" It didn't make sense to him. What could she have possibly meant by saying something like that. "Is she playing with my feelings? Does she just want to hurt me more?". The image of her taking off her clothes with 'him' just started to agitate his anger even more. He couldn't bear the pain. He needed to do something about it.

"Please... Answer me... I need to talk to you... Please reply me...... Ken...."

*Ding Dong

In her confused state as she started to wonder who could be the one ringing her doorbell as it was 3 in the morning. She went downstairs to open the door and as she looked through the peeking hole, she started trembling and crying. She opened the door slightly as she opened her mouth "What....What are you doing here...?"

"YOU NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME!? HOW IN THE WORLD COULD YOU SAY THAT!? AFTER WHAT I SAW! AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME! HOW IN THE FREAKING WORLD COULD YOU EVER SAY THAT TO ME!? WHY.. WHY...WHY....Why.... why..... Just why.........Sharolyn" as Ken fell to his knees and passed out from exhaustion. Sharolyn who was caught in surprise, quickly reacted and carried him to her sofa that was located in the living room. She quickly ran to the kitchen, poured water in to her favourite cup, rushed back to the living room, only to find Ken sitting up already. She passed him the water but did not sit down next to him. Instead, she stood beside him, waiting for him to calm down.

"Where's 'he'?"

"Who?"

"You know who."

"He went back home."

"What did you mean when you said you never stopped loving me?"

"..."

"..."

They both just looked away from each other in silence and that silence remained for about a minute. Sharolyn opened her mouth but nothing came out of her mouth. She wanted to say something just to comfort him but she knew the more she talked, the more she is just going to hurt him. So, she did the right thing. She kept her mouth shut.

"You know I still love you."

"..."

"You know I'll do anything for you. You know I'll always be here for you."

"Yeah. I know."

"I'll go now. Sorry for barging in."

Ken got up, apporached the door but before he could, Sharolyn grabbed his hand."

"Stay...Just stay one  night with me..."

Ken was shocked by what she had just said.

"What... What did you just say?...."

"Stay...."

"For what..."

"Because..."

"Because...?"

"Because I still love you..."

Ken turned around to face her.

"I love you..."

"I love you too..."

"I'll stay..."
Ken let out a tear, and smiled. It had been awhile since he genuinely smiled. She grabbed him and pulled her towards his body and for the first time since they broke up, they hugged. As their body contacted one another, their lips started to lean towards one another. They kissed. They hugged. They laughed. They smiled.

To Be Continued

Love Or Lies; The Meaning

Footsteps echoed all around him, people's voices ran through his mind but he was just sitting there all alone while sipping his cup of coffee, waiting. "Is she actually going to come? " "I don't think so." "She's not going to come". Fighting with himself inside his head, he couldn't bear to be stood up by the one person he loved but somehow, he was preparing himself to be stood up. Suddenly, he turned to the back. Walking in with a red skirt, black slip-ons, a white collared shirt and slinging by her left hand, a red handbag. His eyes widened, his smile litted up and he got up. He sucked it all up, "Hey! I didn't think you would actually come! Umm... Won't he get jealous....?" as he replied. Did he say the right thing? He didn't know but all he knew is that he was happy... For a moment. As he looked at the entrance of the cafe, he saw 'him' walking in. His heart sank, he was lost in words. "WHAT IS HE DOING HERE?! WASN'T IT SUPPOSED TO BE JUST US!?" as he shouted angrily in his head. He couldn't voice it out. He didnt know what he was supposed to do. She walked in, holding hands with 'him'. As he stood there, she walked right through him. Through him. As if he was a phantom. He lifted up his hands, staring at his hands. They were transparent. He stood there, shocked and in silence. He turned around, she sat there with 'him'. She was smiling but he was angry. She was laughing but he was crying. She was in love but he was drowning in that pool of hatred. "What's going on?... What the hell is going on...?". He peered at his body. It was slowly fading away. "What am I to you..?" The sight of her being all happy slowly started to get further and further away from him. He reached out his hands but he couldn't reach her. He stretched it out as far as he could but it was no use. He couldn't reach her. His voice couldn't reach her. Nothing could reach her. "What were we.....?".

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

He suddenly got up from his bed. He peered out of his windown and it was already dark. He realized that it was only just a dream but in his heart, it was also reality. He was a little glad that he did not have to see her ever again but the sight of her being happy with 'him' sanked and hurt his heart eventhough it was only just a dream. "I want you back..... I really... want you back..." as he started crying. "Why does this always happen to me? I loved you with all my heart... Did it not mean anything to you? Do I not mean anything to you? Will I ever be able to hold you the way I did? Will I ever be able to feel your lips against mine ever again? Will I ever be able to just intertwine my hands with yours?" He got up from his bed, went to his bathroom and washed his face. As he looked at the mirror, he was disgusted with himself. He wiped his face with a blue towel and he went back to his room. His apartment was empty. No one lived with him, anymore. There was only one. Her. He went to his kitchen to reminisce and he saw her there cooking with him. He went to his bedroom and he saw her there lying on his arms. He went to his TV room and he saw her there sleeping on his laps while he was watching TV. "Did anything we do have any meaning  to you..." He kept wondering to himself, is she doing it with 'him'? Is she doing everything they did together with 'him'? He didn't want that to happen. He put on his long black sleeve jersey, changed to his black track pants, put on his black shoes and cycled his black bike. While cycling, he put on his black mask so that no one will recognise his face. He cycled for a mere 30 mins until reaching her house. He climbed the tree that would lead up to her window and he hid within the shadows. Concealing his presence, he heard a car door close below him. He quickly reacted and looked below. She was getting out of 'HIS' car. "God... No. Please. No." She was giggling with 'him' as they both walked in to the house together. He lost sight of them and he continued to conceal his presence by hiding in that same tree while waiting for her to go to her room.

He lost.

She walked in to her room with 'him'. "WHAT THE HELL IS 'HE' DOING IN HER ROOM!? GET OUT OF HER ROOM, YOU BLOODY PLAYER! GET THE HELL OUT!!!!" as he shouted in his head with anger. No matter how much he wanted to shout at her to notice him, he knew he couldn't. His heart sank even more when he saw her lying on her bed, and 'he' was lying on top of her. They started kissing. He started crying. They started taking off their clothes. He cried even more.

*crack

"Ahh!" as she screamed in shock. "What was that!? Can you go and check it out please?!". As 'he' was in shock too, he put his shirt back on and slowly approached for the door. 'He' grabbed a badminton racket from behind the door and then 'he' slowly approached the window. Caught between the broken shards of the glass of the window was a small rock. A rock that she took notice of because it was a special rock she collected when she was in China. It was a rock that she gave to him when they were together. She quickly hooked her bra back, grabbed her phone and texted him.

As he was cycling home as fast as he could, he was crying. The tears were interfering with his vision but he didn't care. He continued to cycle as fast as he could. As he reached his apartment in a mere 20 mins, he approached the elevator and rode it up to his floor. He got out, opened his door, parked his bike behind his door, took off his shoes, went to his room, grabbed his katana, unsheathed it, and started destroying everything she gave him. He destroyed everything. Everything. After an hour of destroying everything, he sat down on his bed. He sat down and cried even more. He checked his phone. "You have (1) new message". He opened it. His hand clenched his phone. "Were you at my house?!" "No" "You were! You threw the rock I gave you at my window and you broke my window! Do you know how screwed I am!?". She didn't receive any reply for about 5 minutes. She then texted him again, "ARE YOU THERE!? YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR IT BACK YOU KNOW!?". After 5 mins again, he didn't reply. Again, she texted him but before she could hit the send button, the conversation bubble went up.

In that bubble, it wrote

"Did we mean anything...?"

Love Or Lies; The Memories That Could'nt Help But Flow

"See you! Thanks for dropping me off!"

"Dota2?"

"Sure but not now. Maybe later? See you!"

He took out a bunch of keys from his pocket, opened the gate and advanced to the locked door that prevented him to advance further in to his house. He searched for the key that was hidden under the pot that was at the side of the door, unlocked the door, took out his Canvas shoes and advanced further in to his house. He went to put down his bag on the chair and went back to lock the door that he had left opened. He advanced upstairs so that he could take a nice warm bath. He took out his shirt but before he could approach his toilet door, his phone vibrated on his bed. 

*brrrrrrrr

He went to check who was it from. He unlocked the phone and pulled down his notification screen from the top of his black Apple Iphone. 

"Hey. It's been awhile hasn't it?

As silence filled the air, everything started flowing back to his mind. 

"I Love You"

"I'll never let you go"

"I Promise"

"I wanna get married to you"

"I miss you"

"I Don't Love You Anymore"

"I wanna break up"

"I never promised you that"

"I wanna marry him"

"Go away from me please"

He sat down, leaning agianst his cupboard. "Why of all times, did she have to text me now? I thought I had gotten over her?! What is going on with me!?" he thought to himself, wondering in both confusion and anger. Tears started streaming down his face and he couldn't stop crying. His memories started to flow like a violent river across his mind and he couldn't do anything to stop it. He picked up his phone, looked down at his phone. As tears fell on top of the phone, he replied "Hey. Yeah. It's been awhile.". He eagerly waited for her reply, clenching his left fist, clunching his teeth with his eyes all red from the tears as he felt different types of emotions going through his heart. Was he angry? Was he sad? Was he happy? Or was he all three? 

"I miss you"

*thud thud

His heart skipped a beat. He felt glad for a short period of time but after that, everything he felt was filled with hatred and with anger.

"YOU MISS ME?! HOW THE HECK COULD MISS ME!? AFTER EVERYTHING YOU PUT ME THROUGH!? AND NOW, YOU COME BACK AFTER SO LONG AND SAY YOU MISS ME!? HOW INHUMAN CAN YOU GET!? WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU EVER SAY THAT YOU MISS ME AFTER SO LONG!? AFTER EVERYTHING! GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME! STOP TEXTING ME! STOP COMMU..........." but he stopped halfway. He wiped the tears away from his eyes, he rationalised his thoughts and deleted the text that he wanted to send to her. He brought himself back to the day he first met her in his memories and he wrote...

"I miss you too"

To Be Continued

He's Always Here

He needed help. He craved for help. He felt lonely after all the things he went through. His girlfriend left him. His parents were always busy and his brother never acknowledged his existence and was constantly calling him a freak. He decided, "Hey, I guess I'm not important to anyone in this world right? No one will care if I'm gone right? I guess... It'll soon be all over.." as he elevated himself upon a stool he had brought from the kitchen and tied a noose around his neck that was hung from a ceiling fan. As he took his last breath, he said "Goodbye world. I won't be seeing you anymore.." as he let a tear down his face. He took a step but restrained himself from completing that step. "Can I do it? Does anyone really care about me...? Please.. Someone stop me...!!!" but it was too late. He tripped and fell. As his body hung from the ceiling fan, his life flashed before him and he saw something that changed his decision immediately but it was too late... He thought.

*Snap

The rope snapped as it couldn't take the weight of the boy. He breathed a little yet he remained unconscious. As he awoke within a dream, he saw his body lying on the floor. "Am I dead? Am I really dead? Well, no one will miss me..." as he spoke to himself. He turned around and to his amazement, a bright white silhouette stood before him. "I guess you're the one who's gonna bring me to heaven aren't you? You can't be the God Of  Death because you're all white. You're an angel right? I guess I am going to heaven." as he let out a breath of relief. "I'm not an angel. I am your Saviour. Your Creator. Your God. Your Father." "A god? Please. Don't lie to me angel. A god would never come before a worthless being like me. My existence wasn't even acknowleged by anyone living person on Earth so why would this 'God' be bothered with my existence! Just take me to heaven please." "It's because this 'god' loves you like none any other. It's because I love you like none any other. I am your Father. I have called upon your name so many times but you didn't hear Me. I wanted you to hear me, my son but you didn't choose to hear me." "If you're really God, then what the hell have You done for me!? What!? After all the times I suffered, were you there once!? WERE YOU!?". The white silhouette let out a tear from His eye and waved His hand across the floor. A stream of memories flowed across the floor like a calm flowing river. "I was there, my son. I called upon your name so many times, Peter. I wanted you to come back to Me." As Peter stood on top of the stream of memories, he noticed the times when he was depressed. He saw himself picking up a phone and reading a text from one of his good friends. It was written "The Lord Your God  is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with singing. Dude, this is a passage from the bible, Zephaniah 3:17 . I recently studied it at church and I really hope you are doing well. When I read this passage, it reminded me of you. Dude, don't forget that I am here and that God is always here with you. You have to know that. Don't do anything stupid okay? Bro, I am here for you. Talk to me if there is anything okay? Don't try to take the toll by yourself. Call me when you can!" As Peter watched himself, he let out a tear because he saw himself throw that phone away and ignored everyone that ever cared for him. Then another memory passed him. He noticed a white dove flying pass his house. During that time, he caught eye of the white dove but he never actually took note of it. Peter then realised that awhile ago, he read online that the White Dove represents the Holy Spirit. More tears started to flow down his cheek. "I..I didn't know... I DIDN'T KNOW! I DIDN'T KNOW, GOD!!!!" "My son, no matter how far you drift away from Me, I will always be here, chasing after you." As the white silhouette spoke, He got closer to Peter, He took him in His arms, He lifted his face, wiped the tears from his eyes, He said "Son...". Peter thought to himself, "He called me son... After everything, He called me son...." "Son, do you know? That I still love you". As Peter cried, he said "YES, MY FATHER!!!!"........

As he awoke from his slumber, he saw a white room. He thought he had reached heaven but as his vision got clearer, he realised that he was resting on a  hospital bed. His mom's head was lying beside him, sleeping while his dad was sleeping on a couch before him. "Mom...Dad?" As his parents awoke from their sleep, to their surprise, their son was awake. They ran to him and threw their arms over him. They cried so much but were interrupted by how wide Peter's smile was. They asked why was he smiling. "Mom, Dad... I met Him. I met my Father." The parents were confused as to what he was saying. "What are you talking about, my dear son? Are you feeling okay? How are you?" "No, mom and dad. You've got it all wrong. I met Him. Our Creator. Our Saviour. Our God. Our............." As tears started to flow out of his eyes..."Father...." 

The Unexpected Pair; The Extraordinary Proposal

Sitting on his chair at his table, while scrolling through 9gag, he had nothing to do in class as he had completed his work. He was alone. He had no friends. All his friends were either in different colleges or in a different class. He felt so alone that all he wanted was just someone to talk to. He decided that he would call Kon and ask him whether would he like to have lunch. He lifted up his phone to level it with his eyes and his background appeared blur to him as his eyes concentrated on his phone to dial Kon's number. Then, his eyes moved, meeting with a girl wearing a floral romper. He strained, squinted and forced his eyes to get a glimpse of her name tag. His eyes met with hers, his heart pounding as he swallowed his saliva. He thought... "She's beautiful..." He knew he couldn't proceed her with any ordinary means. In fact, he just couldn't bring himself to even introduce himself to her. He knew he had no chance with her because he was just an ordinary guy. He plays games, watches football and only once in a while would he play football. He had no special achievements made through studies nor did he have any in the field of sports. Everyone else in the class was good in something. They either had looks, brains, brawns or a special achievement while he had nothing. In that instance, he immediately gave up and started browsing through 9gag again on his phone. He then decided to just give Kon a call to see whether was in the area and whether would he like to have lunch with him. "Hey Kon, do you wanna have lunch? I am kinda... Lonely!" as he let out a laughter that was sarcastic but one that was not good enough to fool Kon. Kon knew how he was feeling so he accepted his request. During the time when Rick was on the phone with Kon, he didn't know what was going on. Something caught her eye. Samantha noticed a boy dressed in a black Polo t-shirt and a green short pants. She sat in the corner of the table in front of the class, looking back at Rick and immediately wanted to know who he was and what was his name.

5 mins later

The teacher enters the class and the students immediately stopped their chit chatter and looked at the teacher. Rick was relieved that she didn't look fierce and strict but he knew he still had to behave or he would get in trouble but that wasn't bothering him at all. Seated right in front of him was Samantha and even though he told himself that he would give up on her, he still wanted to find out more about her but he just couldn't bring himself to do it so he tried to look away. He fails every time. He notices her hair which was as black as night, her body that could make any guy go crazy and the way she smiles. Even though he only saw her not more than 10 minutes ago, he noticed every aspect of her. Samantha could sense that someone was looking at her but she did not want to look back. Fearing that it was Rick. The teacher then asked everyone to introduce themselves to the class. Rick hated this part the most in all his classes. The introduction part. That is because it would involve him standing up, talking in front of everyone and even telling his name. He did not want to be noticed, didn't want his notoriety to rise up, didn't want to be known as he feared for what may happened but this time, it was different. He was looking forward to the introduction part. He wanted to know who she was, what was her name and everything about her. "Hi everyone!" with a cheerful smile she had, "I am Samantha Lee! Nice to meet you all but please.... Do Not Piss Me Off." as she said with a high pitched cute voice. Though everyone knew she wasn't kidding about the pissing off part, they all played along and laughed. 10 more other people introduced themselves and when it was his turn, he decided to boost his confidence in himself so that he would look good in front of her instead of his usual "Umm... Hi... I'm Rick... Nothing special about me... Umm... Yeah..." routine. He got up.. "Hi everyone! *ahem.. I'm Rick and it is really really really nice to meet you all!" as he looked at Samantha with blood rushing up to his head and he did this same routine a few times but only when Samantha was in the same classes as him.

2 hours later

He went down to Old Town White Coffee to have lunch with Kon. He went inside and looked for Kon but he was nowhere to be found which means he hasn't reached yet. He took a seat which was meant for two and let out a really big sigh of relief. He never ever introduced himself like that before and for once, he felt good. Out of nowhere, a hand patter his right shoulder and he turned around to only notice that it was Kon. "What's up with the big 'SIGH..' man?!" and they clapped their hands together. Kon saw something different in him. He noticed that there was fire in his eyes and determination and immediately, he knew what was going on. "So??? Aren't you going to tell me?" as he asked Rick but Rick had no idea what was he talking about. "The girl dude. You like someone don't you?" but Rick kept on insisting that he didn't. Suddenly, through the entrance of Old Town White Coffee, a girl dressed in a floral romper walked in. Rick noticed it and he was shocked but at the same time, he was really happy to see her. Kon straight away sensed it and quickly looked the direction that Rick was looking at. Kon then looked back at Rick.. "Dude.. You like Samantha?" with a huge smile on his face. "Wait.. HOW DO YOU KNOW HER NAME!?" as Rick was really surprised but his question and it caught him off guard. "She's Sally's best friend dude. I've met her before in Starbucks." and Rick kept on persuading him to introduce him to her. Samantha noticed Kon and Kon waved and smiled at her! Kon immediately schemed out his plan and looked at Rick and said "NO. You will go and introduce yourself to her. I ain't helping you with this one. Good luck!" as he got up and pushed Rick off his chair. Samantha who noticed what was going on started to blush but smiled as she turned away to pretend like she didn't notice anything. Rick was persistent in following Kon's plan but in the end, he gave up and gave it a go. He walked up to her with this hands in his pocket, trying to play it cool and said "Hi.. I am Rick. I'm in the same Creative Thinking class as you? Not sure if you would ever notice me." Samantha was trying to constrain her smile but she let it show a little. "Yeah. I've seen you around." as she let out a laugh. Rick wanted to tell her that he was best friends with Kon but as he turned around to point out where Kon was, he had vanished. "Kon.. You bastard!" as he shouted that in his mind. It echoed through his mind. Instead of letting him go away, Samantha asked him to take a seat and they immediately started talking. They laughed, they talked and they shared a lot. Suddenly, his phone rang and it was a message from Kon and it said "You'll thank me later:)" and he kept his phone back in to his pocket.

2 weeks later

Sally picked up her phone "SALLY.. Where are you? Umm.. Are you nearby college? Umm... HELP ME!!!!!" as she screamed for help. Sally then looked at Kon and was really worried and they quickly drove off to where Samantha was. On the way there, Kon also noticed that when Samantha was asking for help, he could hear Rick in the background. They drove as fast as they could.

A few minutes later

"LET ME OUT OF THE CAR! I WANNA GO HOME!" "NO. YOU ANSWER MY QUESTION FIRST!" "WHY DO I HAVE TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION!?" "BECAUSE I WANNA KNOW!" "WHAT DO YOU WANNA KNOW!?" "WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND!?..."  and there was silence in the car for a few seconds. "I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T WANNA ANSWER YOU NOW!" "I AM NOT LETTING YOU OUT OF THE CAR UNTIL YOU ANSWER ME!" "IF YOU REALLY WANT ME TO ANWER YOU, WHY CAN'T YOU DO THIS WITH A LITTLE MORE ROMANCE!?" "FINE!". Rick got out of the car and he went to the side of the car. "GET OUT HERE!" as he still shouted at her. Samantha got out of the car and went in front of Rick. "WHAT!?" "SAMANTHA! I'VE LIKED YOU FOR A LONG TIME! SCREW THIS! I THINK I LOVE YOU! PLEASE LET ME BE THAT IDIOT WHO WILL BE BESIDE YOU FROM NOW TILL FOREVER! PLEASE!?" but Samantha's reply wasn't something Rick expected. "Mom... I've found him. The person I'll madly fall in love with..." as tears streamed down her face... "Yes...." Rick was confused for awhile. "What..?"  "YES LA! I SAID YES LA YORH!" Rick smiled for the longest period of time.

10 minutes later\

"What's going ON!?" as Kon and Sally rushed out of the car to assist Samantha in what ever trouble Samantha and Rick got themselves in to. Suddenly, Sally screamed out of excitement and ran back to Kon, hitting him on the chest. "LOOK!!!!!!!!" as she pointed at Samantha and Rick. Kon's jaw dropped and he shouted "HOLY CRAP!". An image and a moment that was snapped, captured and stored in both their brains. An image.. Of Samantha and Rick holding hands.

The Unexpected Pair; The One Who Longs

Past

Ever since her mother passed away, it felt like her whole world was falling apart. Everywhere she went, there was a memory of her mother and her. Walking pass by the park she used to exercise in, a memory of her mother carrying her when she was a toddler. Walking pass by the coffee shop she used to eat in, a memory of her mother feeding her. Walking pass by her mother's room, a memory of her mother loving her. She sat down alone at home, always thinking about her mother, about how much she missed her and also, about how much she loved her. She cried. She cried every single night where the tears could fill an ocean or form a river moving drastically fast. She prayed to God, with such anger and sadness.. "I WANT MY MOM BACK!!!!" but she knew she could never get her back. She was no longer the same in school. She felt so alone. She longed for someone. She longed for someone who could could fill that gap for her. She didn't want to feel alone anymore.

She was popular in school. She was known for her grades, for her looks and for her athletic abilities. She could run a 100m in 9seconds, she could get straight A's for her results and many guys were chasing after her. Did she feel she accomplished alot? Yes, she did but did she really care about it? She walked home alone again, without anyone beside her and praying to God once again, pleading to give her back her mother. As she reached home, she went to feed her two pure breed rabbits, Lucy and Sabby. She hugged them and kissed their head. They were the two pets that were given to her by her mother not long before she passed. Samantha treasured them. She took very good care of them and made sure they felt loved like how she felt the love given to her by her mother. She brought them to her room and she dropped her bag on the floor, took off her clothes and went in to the bathroom. Turning on the shower tap and she allowed herself to drown her misery and sorrow in the hot water falling on top of her head. She thought about her school, her friends and her mother. As she turned off the tap, she wiped her hair with her brown towel and put on her favourite pyjamas. She lied her head on top of her white pillow and covered herself with her blanket. It was warm. This warmth brought back memories of her mother embracing her daughter so tightly in her arms as it felt like she was never going to let go off her mother. Then she remembered something her mother said to her when she was young. "Samantha, you know I love you? I love you so much and you're my whole world. I am so fortunate to have a daughter like you. I will never ever leave you, my dearest daughter. Samantha Lee, I'll always be here for you okay?". Samantha, whom at that time was very small and did not understand what her mother was saying and all she could do was smile, nod her head and reply "I love you, mommy!". Samantha's mother smiled and hugged her once again with tears streaming down her face. "Thank you God for making this life, a memorable one. You have blessed me with this wonderful gift and now I'm ready to come back to You."

She remembered those words "...I will never ever leave you..." and she broke into tears. She screamed and her two siblings came rushing into the room, only to see what was going on. They went to restrain her and they heard the words that were coming out of her mouth. "YOU SAID YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME! YOU SAID YOU WOULD NEVER GO! MOM, COME BACK! PLEASE COME BACK!" and it made their siblings cry at the same time. At that time, for the very first time, she realized that she wasn't the only one who was suffering, Her brother, her sister and her father were all suffering too. She realized they all missed their mother and she cried along with them. After what felt like hours, she fell into a deep sleep. "Samantha...? Samantha...? Samantha..?". Someone was calling for her name. She woke up on green grass that was so clean and in front of her was an ocean so blue that it shocked her. For awhile, she was wondering where was she. She remembers falling asleep but now she is somewhere not known to her. As she was looking around, something caught her eye. A woman dressed in white and looking at her. Samantha could not believe her eyes. She covered her mouth with her right hand and tears started streaming down her face. Her left hand grasped the grass and she dashed towards her. She jumped to her with open arms and hugged her so tight. "MOM! MOM! MOM!!!!!!!!" as she screamed it out loud. Her mother hugged her gently and looked at her in the eyes. She smiled, " You've grown up. You're so pretty now. Have you found anyone you have fallen madly in love with?" as she laughed. Samantha who could not respond and just rubbed her face against her mother's chest. "Mom... I've missed you... I've missed you so much..." She realized that all these was just a dream but it felt so real to her. The feeling of being hugged by her mother again, the familiar warmth from her mother's body and the gentle voice that came from her mother. "I've missed you too Samantha but Samantha, you must not be this weak. I told you before didn't I? I will always be with you. Maybe not physically but..." as she raised her index finger and pointed it to her heart "...I will always be in here. In your heart. I love you Samantha!" as she kissed Samantha's forehead and she waved goodbye to her daughter as she started to drift further away from Samantha. "DON'T GO! MOM!!!!!! MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" as she screamed. She woke up, tearing but this time, it wasn't out of sadness. "Mom... I'll do my best... I love you mom..." and she grabbed her chest as she could still feel her mother's warmth.

Present

A few days after Rick confessed to her, she decided to give this relationship a try. For some reason, she saw something different in Rick than the other guys. She saw something special in him that she did not see in other guys. She realized that he was special to her in many ways but she did not know what. One night, Rick decided to ask her to be his girlfriend. Shocked by his proposal, she couldn't answer straight away. "ANSWER ME NOW!" as Rick was so nervous and wanted to know as soon as possible but Samatha didn't wanna answer right away. Rick who was very persistent got out of the car, got on his knees under a lamp post and said with a little more romance and politeness, "Samantha, I've liked you for a long time. Screw this! I love you! Please.. Please let me be that idiot who will be beside you from now till forever! Please!" as Rick clenched his left hand which was behind his back. Samantha's reply, wasn't something he expected but something which made him even more curious, "Mom... I've found him. The person I'll madly fall in love with..." as tears streamed down her face... "Yes...."

The Unexpected Pair; The Crush

Past

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"Could you please stop bothering me.... I'm trying to relax here!" as he received a text from his girlfriend. Rick didn't like clingy girls neither did he like girls who would get mad at him for no reason. His girlfriend would get mad at him if he didn't reply within 30 seconds and he could not take it. When Rick did reply, she wouldn't reply him because she was already too mad at him. "What does she freaking want!?" was something he would always wonder. "I love you, I am with you.. How much more do you want!?". He did not know what to do with her. He didn't have the courage to end it yet he didn't know whether should he even end it. Should he give her another chance? Should he have the patience to learn how to deal with her? The next day, he tried. He tried to change for her. He stopped playing his games, he stopped getting frustrated with her and he tried to be a better boyfriend. 

*click

He turned off his computer, swearing that he wouldn't be touching it the whole day. He got into his car, drove to the florist store which was near his house and bought a bouquet of roses. As he returned to his car his shoulder knocked against someone. He dropped his flowers and looked at the bouquet and it was ruined. 50 bucks wasted just like that. He felt as if God was punishing him. He looked at the stranger who bumped into him and saw that it was Kon. "Dude.. I just wasted 50 bucks because of you!" as he shouted in pure anger and clenched his fist. Kon, who knew something was definitely out of place asked him if everything was okay. As an apology, Kon bought a new bouquet of flowers but also treated him to coffee as he wanted to know what was wrong with Rick. Rick explained how frustrated he was with her but was confused about his decision to whether he should just end the relationship or let it continue. Kon told him to follow his heart. Kon advised him that if staying is what he wanted to do, then he should go with it but if he really couldn't stand the fact of having an over-attached girlfriend, that he should end it because things will just get worse and in the end, the break-up will be one made from anger and not peace. Rick wanted to just give it another try so he thanked Kon for the coffee and returned to his car. "I love you okay?" as he typed it in to his phone and sent the text to his girlfriend. When he got home, he found out that there was a football match going at the night so he told his girl that he would be watching the game. 

2 hours later

He put on his Manchester United jersey, got his food and drinks and went in to sit in front of his 55" inch Samsung Glass TV. He passed the food to his father who was sitting beside him. Sweat ran down his face, his heart pumping and excitement grew in his eyes as his team scores. The match goes on for another hour and as the game ended, he shouted "MU FOREVER!" with his father. He was happy and he ran upstairs with an eager heart to tell his girlfriend the highlights of the game. As he picked up his phone, his heart stopped pumping with excitement, his eyes were no longer the same, he clenched his left fist and gripped his phone tighter. 96 missed calls and 50 text messages. He couldn't take it. He thought he could but he could no longer. He called her up and the first thing his girlfriend said was "Where the hell were you?!" and he told her that he was watching the game. She couldn't understand what he was saying and he couldn't take it. "He screamed with anger "It's over! I no longer wanna be with you!" and he hung up. There was total silence and tears ran down his face but his heart felt somehow, relieved.

Present

Sitting on his chair at his table, while scrolling through 9gag, he had nothing to do in class as he had completed his work. He was alone. He had no friends. All his friends were either in different colleges or in a different class. He felt so alone that all he wanted was just someone to talk to. He decided that he would call Kon and ask him whether would he like to have lunch. He lifted up his phone to level it with his eyes and his background appeared blur to him as his eyes concentrated on his phone to dial Kon's number. Then, his eyes moved, meeting with a girl wearing a floral romper. He strained, squinted and forced his eyes to get a glimpse of her name tag. His eyes met with hers, his heart pounding as he swallowed his saliva. He thought... "She's beautiful..."